Broken

I turned the corner and suddenly I see you. My lips turn into the biggest smile. There is my wonderful friend, I think to myself. I can't wait to reach you, to share some time with you. You don't see me. As I get closer, I see your eyes. Something is not right. You've been crying forever. I know you. I walk up to you. I know there is nothing but pain. I think I hear something breaking in two. I don't say anything, I just sit down next to you and let you have your thoughts. Tears rain down your face, there's nothing I can do.  I watch your fist hit your thigh, Whatever it is, the pain is just too great, too overwhelming for you. You know, I say, you're a good person. You just shake your head no. I get very concerned. You still won't talk. What caused you so much pain? Have you ever had to tell someone you love so much you just can't have a relationship with them anymore? No. I asked you who. You tell me. I can't say a thing. I know how much you both love each other so much. I go to show you my support by rubbing my friend's back. You shrugged away. You don't want anyone's touch, trust isn't there. You don't trust your friend, you don't trust yourself and you don't trust me at the moment. You finally speak up. Why is it that when my friend and I were as close as I thought we were, they couldn't be honest enough to tell me what was wrong between us? I don't get it. I have been honest with them and I told them they could always be honest with me, but they couldn't do it. Maybe they didn't want to hurt me. I could see the hurt in your eyes. They couldn't hide the fact that there was something wrong. I heard it in their voice. Right then I saw anger in your eyes. They said they were going to eventually tell me after they got it straight, but by that, I was really hurt and I was honest myself and I probably made it worst. I wanted a chance to tell them something before I lost the nerves to, and so I did. You look so sad. At least you were honest, I say to you. More tears come. I just said the wrong thing, I apologized. I look at you. May I hold your hand? Yes. I am proud of you, you know. This isn't easy huh, I whisper. You know I'm o.k. right? I know what you mean. Of course, I know.  I gently remind you of some things we have talked about. It will heal and it will get better. You promise? Yes, I promise. Don't lose faith. It takes all I can do to hold on to, my faith that is. Tell me something, do you feel like giving up? Sometimes. Please don't. Call me before anything happens. Promise me! I love you. I don't feel like saying those words. I know. You don't have to, I just thought I would tell you. It hurts so much. I know it does. I put my arms around you, you finally let me hug you. You can trust me.

                                                       I TRUST YOU SUZANNE