They say that life is not always easy. Sometimes, you find a once in a lifetime friend - a friend you were meant to meet. A meeting planned out by God. A rare, planned friendship with no doubt to the mind. You realized the specialness as the union grows and strengthens. There is a bound that's really understood by only the two of you. People around you may have some understanding of it, but not totally. The love of God is between the two of you. That is why you love each other so much. The power to let God control the union is there. Nothing is forced. Sometimes, you forget to let God have control. This is where things can get mixed up, confusing. That's when you pray to God for help, make the union strong again in His love, because you only want it that way. Sometimes, God doesn't answer in a way that you would like. You may never know why. You just want God's way because you know His way is best. This doesn't mean you have to like it, but you must accept it. Questions are asked by you and understanding is so far from here. Only room for tears and pain. The knowledge of your friend being hurt by something you said is so real, it's the one thing you regret the most. It is an awful feeling. The memory of your friend crying haunts you beyond belief. It breaks your heart because so much love is still there. There is no way to take it back. You would move heaven and earth to apologize, but you're afraid to make a move. You are absolutely sorry. Never tell someone that honestly loves you so deeply that you hate yourself. It truly does break their heart. It's something you just don't do. People say you didn't really hurt your friend, but after hearing that dreadful sound, you don't believe them. You hurt as well. You don't really hate yourself, you've just shared something that is not easy to share at all. It's so painful, but you felt like you had to, get something said before it's too late. You know you must say good-bye. You feel that it's the best thing to do. The question is: how? How do you let go without having your hearts broken in two, knowing that it may take a long time to heal? Perhaps it will never heal, not completely anyway. The fact is, you don't. Your hearts will break, and there's no avoiding it. Not when there is so much love between you two. In this case, love will never die. Separation can not kill that kind of love, it is impossible. So you go do what you must do. It's the right thing to do. You still hate it. You plead with your friend not to hear some words between you, you can't bear to hear them. Your friend does not make you say them because they couldn't bear to hear them either. They will not say them as well. You can hear the breaking of two hearts loud and clear. You say one last prayer together. The time has come. I love you's are said very softly and tenderly. Those words are said with so much honesty. You hear a click, it's over. Before it is finished, these other words are said, giving at least some hope and at the time, a small amount of happiness - There's always Heaven.
I will always love you very much, my friend............
In loving tribute to a friendship
that will come full circle in
Heaven
Love never ends...............
1 Cor. 13:8
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