Sadness Again

I feel sad again God. I feel like I'm somewhere and I don't know my way back. I turn to You and it helps for a while, but then I feel lost again. I know You're here and You are loving me, You're sad for me. All I can do is draw near to You and try to keep the negative thoughts from coming back. They come back anyway. Why didn't something happen God? I don't understand. I know I didn't do anything wrong this time. The least little thing can make me cry. Sometimes I wish You come take me home, but I don't want to go home until You come to get me. It's just that this pain is so unbearable and I can't make it go away. I can't love myself. Will You please love me for me until I am strong again? My friends want to love me through this. They love me so much. I know this will never change. I know that deep in my heart I know this. It gives me comfort every time I remember this.  I think that deep in my heart I know this. Lord, help me through this, help me get the help I need. I need You God, I need my DaddyGod. Come and hold me, come and rock me to sleep.